• that in music, as in life, timing is very important
• that when we sell something, we have to knock 100 doors
• that I have to keep and keep and keep and keep and keep and keep and keep and keep and keep (okay I know I can just say to the nth power! haha) on writing and trying
• that there really comes a point when we feel so frustrated about not getting what we want that we want to give up (but if the dream is greater than the fear, strength wins)
• that I am young and there is a lot ahead of me (although let's admit it, there are so many young people out there who started out younger and have made it big, but better late than never... and if I may add, sorry)

Geez, my last entry was last summer! Man, time to sweep some dust off here.

Between summer and now (which still kind of looks like summer because it doesn't always rain, although when it rains it's pretty hard) as my favorite line to use says: "a lot of things happened." I met a lot of people, most of whom I never thought I would. I've been through some things which are really unexpected but then I guess that's what's exciting about life. YOU'LL NEVER REALLY KNOW. And sometimes when we get used to things, it kinda gets boring and somehow we secretly wish that things  will shake up. And so they did in mine.

Not-so random lines enumerated in random order about what I learned from the past few months:

1. It's better to ask than never to ask at all. So what if you stutter, so what if you sound weird, so what if you look nervous... (but of course it's better if you don't) Just do it and take the chance. You'll never know what you'll learn from the other end. Practice and continuous "exposure" would nail it soon.

2. It's better to say too much than never to say what you need to say (yes John Mayer I'm quoting you again). It may be embarrassing, but I realized it's better if you say how you really feel (of course let's choose our words wisely so as not to be misunderstood/misinterpreted) because there would be no regrets in the end and in your end.

3. Since I took on this job until now... I've learned a lot about writing. But I'm not really contented about them. I know there is still so much to learn and so much room for growth. For me art is unlimited and the communication lines are endless. There's a lot of possibilities we can come up with and so I'm excited to learn more. 

4. Don't act on your own. Even if you work by your lonesome, you're still part of the team (especially if you work for a company). Be sensitive and discerning about the things you say, the things you do, because it's not just you. Take caution.

5. We can never undo our mistakes, but we still have the future to do better, to not repeat the same mistakes, to show that we've learned and we've grown. If we're given the chance, LE'TS NOT WASTE IT.

6. RELATIONSHIPS ARE WAY MORE IMPORTANT THAN THE JOB YOU HAVE. Cherish them, because you'll never know when fate decides to play and tests them.

7. Evaluation time! As a writer I should improve (badly needed!) doing interviews, especially being keen enough for follow-up questions. And I think actually writing down questions on paper doesn't work for me. Perhaps spontaneity is beauty. Haha. Or maybe putting keywords on my phone would at least do. Basta, I don't want to write my questions anymore on paper. I become blank. :))

8. No matter how difficult things and times are, when you love what you do, and you appreciate the people you work with, it will take forever for you to give up on it.

9. GOOD VIBES FOR THE WIN! \m/

10.  __________________________________ Will leave this blank for now. Learning never stops. :)

Thank you God for the "fresh start."

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Sharing here something I posted on Facebook. Got this one from one of my notebooks. It was written beside some unfinished verses for a song I was supposed to write, I think. Hehe. Anyway, I expanded it and here's what I came up with:

6 music player commands as applied to human emotions and situations: REWIND para sa may mga regret; SKIP para sa may mga gustong kalimutan; FAST FORWARD para sa mga nagmamadali/ di makuntento; PLAY para sa mga steady lang; STOP para sa mga stuck; at PAUSE para sa sabik sa pahinga/sabik sa pag-freeze ng moments/anxious sa change.

I wish everyone well. :) Lovelovelove and happiness! :)

I must admit my music library is getting really dusty and rusty and is in serious need (and want, from me lol) of updating. Haven’t got the chance to devote my time to get new albums, but I had been “canvassing” thanks to Grooveshark, I get to stream albums I’m interested in—fast and continuous. Got the link from Gia. Somehow it can be associated with Last.fm (which reminded me that I created an account last year only to abandon it a few days after with no serious content to begin with lol). Last.fm’s interface and structure is different though. I think Grooveshark is more for listening for yourself than sharing what you listen to to others (at least that’s how I deem it to).

More music matters: Here are three music videos of the songs I like at present. 

Woohoo, capped off the day early at work. I’ll be leaving in a while to have some “me time”. I actually feel kind of weird leaving the office early because my body clock is used to the nine-hour (or more) work time. But I think this is an opportunity that doesn’t often come. And besides, I’m really itching to go for some reason. Maybe it’s one of those days that you just wanna get out and get away and distract yourself with other things, clear your mind of what you’re usually doing. So I’m going after I let this thing out:

I wonder why I sometimes (or most of the time) can’t tell a proper story well. Especially if it’s very important to me, but I tend to get caught up with all the details; trapped in the feeling of wanting to pour them all out yet conscious of boring people to death, especially if I’m sharing it in a group. I just look like I have some pretty thick face and some handy guts but I realized I have moments like that, feeling uncomfortable to talk about “me” stuff. Maybe I should enroll myself in some Speech class or something? Lols.

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LET GO OF THE BITTERNESS. LET GO OF THE PAIN. LET GO OF THAT ONE THIN THREAD THAT SHOULD’VE BEEN CUT A LONG TIME AGO. JUST… MOVE. FORWARD.

—posted this on my Plurk and Tumblr yesterday after realizing that somehow I’m still hung up on yesterday. Things happened and they happened for a lot of reasons. My life wouldn’t be the same if otherwise happened.

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Found this on cosmopolitan.com: the FOUR GUTSY CHANGES TO MAKE THIS 2010

“You need to push out of your comfort zone in order to grow,” Portmann says. “Thrusting yourself into new situations will teach you about yourself and what you’re capable of.” 

Maybe that’s the reason why I’m in this new situation, experiencing a different kind of experience, feeling a different kind of feeling that I never had before, or maybe I had, but it was in a different context. It’s uncomfortable because it’s a discord, but I guess we need to be shaken up sometimes to excite ourselves and our lives, to see which of our principles still apply when were thrust in a different kind of situation. Or maybe just to test us if we’ve learned from our past mistakes.

The article’s a good read, check it out: CLICK. 

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Since we can’t bang our hearts on the wall, it’s the head that suffers. Lols.